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    Landon Wordswell has completed a "How To" guide of sorts for his son that use experiences and quotes in his lifetime to express his feelings about Love, Life, Lovelife, Anger, Finding happiness & the like. He has molded an honest sound that are the makings of his 3rd LP, "DAD". As with any child, it takes a village. Landon has reached out to Ra Scion, Mostafa, Tope, DJ FlipFlop & many more to complete the album's vocal collaborative efforts. As far as production Wordswell finds instrumentation from Thomas Prime, Kondor, Shag, goldenbeets & RasOm. Album releases 12/12/2014

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Thank you's:

Kamari - Babyboy. My beautiful baby boy. My son. It's no coincidence that I've started promo for this album on your bday. Your first bday. Happy birthday! This album is for you. This album is your album. Your "dada" gets himself into the craziest things. When you're old enough to read this I want you to know that you are the biggest blessing my life has ever been given. You're the purist being I've ever witnessed. You're my everything. Sometimes I break down looking into your eyes. Same color as mine. Your nose. Shame shape as mine. Your lips. Same as mine. Your cheekbones. Same. You're why I work as hard as I do. I've sacrificed so much to get to where I am to show you to never give up your dream. Ever. You will always find a way out of harm, but the path of least resistance often times leads to misery, babyboy. Be happy in this lifetime. Rejoice. Outlive life before life outlives you. & remember that appearing crazy to a society built on normalcy means you're doing something right. I love you and will always love you from this realm and beyond. I wish words could properly express that.

Cassandra - seeing you in labor giving birth to the light of both of our lives was incredible. We hard the worst time afterwards trying to figure out this co-parenting thing, but I want to thank you for being who you are. Being who you are enough to look past my mistakes as I've looked past yours. Thank you for coming to an agreeable medium. Our son is the benefactor of our decision. We are much better where we are. Thank you for never pushing the issue. I know where your heart lies and I know that must be as hard for you as it is for me to see you hurt from it. No matter what our family turns into we will alway be family.

Chris - you know what this album means to me. We've been touring for 10 years. Everything you've predicted about my career has come into fruition. If the rest of what you say comes to pass we will be living what we sought out to live. Thank you brother. Thank you for getting me out of tough spots. Thank you for the partnership. The years of laughs. Everyone I know that knows about you tells me how lucky I am to find such a manager. I love you, brother. That's automatic at this point. It's been a decade! Now I got a kid and we're doing legit tours lol

Gab - Bro. You saved my career. When I told you our tour was my last because of my son & you told me that's the very reason that this should be the beginning.. Man.. Thank you for taking me on, brother. You're a legend. Your humility is inspiring. Your talent is unmatched. Thank you for climbing on th digital copy, man. You're like a big brother to me, man. Anything you need ever is a text or call away!

Thomas Prime- thank you for awakening my creativity. Thank you for pushing me. Thank you for letting me know that I was half-assing my ability for so long. You saw talent where I didn't. I appreciate you for that brother. CCR all day!

Bob - Thank you for being in my ear the whole time with every Cult Classic Records release. Thank you for taking a kid with nothing and introducing him to your loyal followers. Thank you for being so selfless. Everyone in our world knows how much you and Thomas do for jazz hop, chill hop, & good music in general. CCR all day!

Kondor - Thank you brother. Thank you for being so patient with me. Thank you for being a partner. Our album will happen. Thank you for forgiving my procrastination and still blessing this album with your instrumental for "Focus". CCR all day!

Shag - thank you. thank you for taking time apart from your schedule. I know you're working on albums and I know howtedious getting beat stems to engineers can be lol I'll see you at the top, brother. CCR all day!

goldenbeets - thank you man! Your beats have allowed me to express some pretty therapeutic topics for me. You're so talented man. I was honored to enter this project with a craftsman such as yourself. I know your time was also limited. That does not go unnoticed. I appreciate you, brother.

MoStafa - thank you for being my brother. You know how hard I can be on you. On myself. On others. You know how unorganized I am. You know how I take unreasonable risks. You know how my mind works. You KNOW me & you still love me for who I am, brother. You never left. When I was being stupid and drunk you literally saved my life. I owe you my life. It's that simple. It's that complex. I will give to you what I can not only because you reciprocate, but because I love you, brother. See you at the too, emcee.

Shea - THE beautiful Shea. THE intelligent Shea. THE remarkable artist Shea. Thank you girl. I told you. We're familia now. We your together. We're going to enjoy the ride together. Let's keep putting our best foot forward. Nothing but genuine love for you, Champ/Red.

RasOm - thank you brother. I know the beat we used someone else asked for. thank you
For showing me first. You're ARE blono' BIGGEST secret. Not for long though. There will be no secrets after we do our best to be heard.

Armand - Brother. Brother. The brother I never had but blessed to know. I dedicate this album to my son & you. You & him completely inspired this album. You'd love my son, brother. He would love you. I know you're looking down from heaven right now as I write this. I know you've also witnessed me cry til ran out of tears hugging my son while listening to your music. Thank you for believing in me in high school while no one else did. Through college you still cheered me on. Experiencing your light and insight allowed me to develops as a man. Brother, I love you. I'm still trying to see the good out of what has happened to you, but it's still hard for me. Forgive me for that.

Mark & Ron - my brothers. Mark you're the best engineer of all time. It's going to be great watching your skills grow. Ron, you know what it is. We are brothers now. There is no going back. Especially after a night like we had on Halloween lol all luh!

Ryan - thank you for taking time to toss me a verse man. Little ole me. Outside of your outstanding rapping abilities, Your humility is a stand out quality. I've grown up listening to you. To hear you side by side on a track with me is honestly a dream come true. Anytime you need anything let me know, brother. I told mark you were going to body me on my own shit ! Lol he almost didn't believe me! Ha

Tope - I remember when I first moved to Portland. Everybody was cliqued up lol you always kinda did your own thing. You had the respect of everyone in Portland. All the cliques lol but you still did you. That's why I love the attitude man. The swag. The honesty. It's all you, brother. You handle Portland & I'll take care of Eugene. Let's lock Oregon down and invite everybody in on the fun. That's the only way we'll ever grow.

Val - as you copy and paste my thank you's I want you to know that I've been thanking and praising you ever since I met you. Incredible emcee. Incredible artist. I truly doubt there are things that you can't accomplish. Thank you for taking on my stressful deadline for this album.

Christopher Burns - you're the illest. You can do EVERYTHING. Sing, bass, mixing. Everything. It's been great building with such a talent.

Chip - words can't express. you've seen me at my best. My worst. You've just been there brother. I appreciate that. Once we start touring more you're my number 1 bruh!

Kenny - I know you don't live in the northwest anymore (to my knowledge anyway) but i want to say you have to be THE best I've heard with those hands man. Effortlessly killing it. We don't know each other well unfortunately, but what I do know of you is that you're a genuine dude. I appreciate everything you've done for me.

Thank you.

Everyone. Everyone that has started off with my first album, The Mourning After Pill. Thank those of you who have consistently emailed me. You all are how/why I am still putting out albums. Every album is like a different page in this book I'm slowing piecing together, but this album, DAD, is a whole new chapter within itself. Thank those of you who have chosen to read the fine print. I love all of you. Genuinely.

credits

released 12 December 2014

DAD Album recorded, mixed and mastered by EYEMC

**except "Push" & "I Love You". "Push" & "I Love You" were recorded by Christopher John for Telos Studios, Eugene, OR.

** "I Love You" was mixed by Christopher John for Telos Studios, Eugene, OR

** "I Love You" was mastered by EYEMC
** "Push" was mixed and Mastered by Thomas Prime for Cult Classic Records

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Track Name: Landon Wordswell ft Shea (Prod. Shag) - Forever
Verse 1:
I used to date this girl
She made my world bigger
I used to tell her that I could change the world with her
We were moving fast
On ya mark - ready, set
No go - 7 years later - wasn't ready yet
But I loved her - she probably won't believe it now
Because I did too many odd things to even out
Cuz I was young, dumb, full of it
Full of a lot of things those days - but never full of shit
When I left she had man within a week up on her
Probably did that cuz she thought that I was cheating on her
But I wasn't - I was keeping to myself
Plus the dreams that I had - they couldn't reach nobody else
The body's temporary - the soul's the sacred part
So be weary of these women - they could break your heart
See, love only works when you believe
But believing in the wrong girl can hurt to a degree
we're all a little different so at first we wanna leave
But you gotta stick it out for the birds to trust the bees
Find what you want
Never settle on the issue
Find somebody that'll start the revolution with you

Shea:
If we ever fall in love
I need to know
that you are the one the one
that I can need forever
When forever isn't long enough
and love isn't what we thought it was

Verse 2:
These girls know I'm deep enough to say I love you
Wanting me to dive in, but shallow as a puddle
And that's to name a couple - that's to name a few
Bless the name of you
Let's address the angle, too
See women love men - men love women
But women like to grab a bad boy & trust in him
& get they hearts broken because their heart's open
They start choking part hoping
That he starts sloping
on another spectrum - but they get just like you
From the outside looking in it's just a vicious cycle
But if it wasn't meant to be
she wasn't meant for me
Mentally into me she sent a hint
& lent some energy but
I need a woman that's smart & plays her part
Because I'ma play mine - I hate an automated thought
You need a mind of ya own
So I can find it at home
I want the kind of mind you find in a poem
this point of my career I'm in the zone like time
Coast to coast jet lagging with some strong like minds
& her grind - yea that should be strong like mines
So if we ever fail we both have some strong lifelines
Cmon

Shea: repeat 2x
If we ever fall in love
I need to know
that you are the one the one
that I can need forever
When forever isn't long enough
and love isn't what we thought it was
Track Name: Landon Wordswell ft DJ Casp3R (Prod. by Kondor) - Focus (I No Know)
Intro:
I no know
Trying to learn everything now that I no know
Trying to learn everything now that I no know
That I no know
That I no know
heyyy
I no know
Trying to learn everything now that I no know
Trying to learn everything now that I no know
That I no know
That I no know
heyyy

DJ Casp3R:
*Scratches*

Better person
Better man
That's what I'm trying to be
But see I'm only human in my times of need
Clocks tickin' & I barely find the time to eat
Because I I battle this depression when I find a beat
Tested outer limits of my flesh & my mind
erasing suicidal thoughts as I'm sketching my rhymes
& I'm like nah I'm fine when I'm texting my mom
Because I don't really want her worried about my stress at the time
I Could never move back home
Because she's the one I spazzed on
So I grew a backbone
Living off these rap songs
As for locals
Everybody thinks they know you
Up until you go Postal
Then just watch how they approach you
Good GOD lord Jesus
Who am I to force a thesis?
Sort the pieces or police it
Less worried; More strategic
I put my trust in too many but now I'm not as fatal
I put my life in they hands - they playin' hot potato

DJ Casp3R:
*Scratches*

Yo Listen
I make mistakes - they acting like I ain't human
Just because they hear the music and they like what I'm doing
So I come at a different angle when I'm writing my views &
My thoughts are parallel to hell plus the mic is congruent
Naw I ain't new to this dog
I just neutered it
& now I'm starting to see that these cats is mostly uterus
Call it like I see it - if my crew gets defeated
I'm the Caesar looking for Brutus when the moves get completed
Gotta family man thirst
I'm a family man first
& my son goes crazy when this family man works
So my time is money and my money is time
So excuse me if I'm not making the funniest rhymes
This is real life distributed in 16 bars
Without a yaht, 16 cars or big screen stars
I got a long ways to go & this road - it's bumpy as hell
When it feels like they all want me to fail
cmon

DJ Casp3R:
*Scratches*
Track Name: Landon Wordswell ft Tope, DJ FlipFlop (Prod. RasOm) - Survival Kit
"Survival Kit"

Don't be crazy baby
You know I gotta live
I keep it positive
I'm a survivalist
I'm just a profitless Optimist
Rise the populous
Tried to get my metropolis
Live for this
Took a shot at it
Fatherless at my born day
Now I'm just a novelist
Dodgin' the plots & toppled it
Vibing with my conglomerates
Novices knock my knowledge;
It's obvious logic's prosperous
Lots of it I could chop it with
Mother Mary the prophet is
Botherless - go repeat it
Grovel at folks that need it
cowardous cowards cower
devour the soul & fetus
Powerless are those that now are flowers that showed their seedless
If I was to sew the seed from beneath then the Growths completed
Depleted elitist leaders
I speak a thesis & teach it
A fleet of unique believers succeeded
Peace to the preachers
Everyone on my side
Living with they eyes wide
Open got em hoping that I slip into the top five
We can do the cha cha
Celebrate at my spot
& every time I make a hit they called it like a pop fly
Keep em in the outfield - an angel at that
So we can paint the city red
Then I'm painting it back
Steady chasing the past passin' the hate to the back
So It's killing me trying live every day like my last
with The pace that I'm at
Steady chasing this cash
Lacing raps
Blazing fat sacks and facin' the facts
It's a wrap

DJ FlipFlop:
*Scratches*

Tope:
I'ma say some cool shit
Aint got an emmy but you know I act a fool, kid
No gang, but the star got a full clip
Chris Paul & you know the kid pull quick
Go write a list of a true survivalist
either you can ride the fence or you can ride the dick
Doing the most
I got room for you both
& you really shouldn't brag because they boo when you boast
yea
my crew be that dope even if I dont smoke
(wait) hold up - roll up another one
really want to pop - you can blow like bubble gum
here we go again - go again - with another one
I be on the road trying to roll up another one
I be on the go trying to go til the money come
Shout out to Landon - good lookin' on the track
The sky be the limit and the city got my back
uh

DJ FlipFlop:
*Scratches*
Track Name: Landon Wordswell (Prod. goeldenbeets) - Landon Raps (Interlude)
"Landon Raps"

This year's been fucking crazy but ya dude's fine though
Look, money, I'm here to save you
Got that coupon flow
I mean my God they got us forgot about us and got a new one
Tried to knock us; adopted choppers to stop the movement
Pop a shot at the popular
Pop a squat with binoculars
Watch the block & it's not gonna stop the shots & they mocking us
see em in my sights then I'm'a stop em regardless
So I don't fuck with walmart dog
I got em in target
Cats do three shows then call it a tour?
I put my life on the line; I've been homeless before
But I didn't call my moms - I was embarrassed as shit
But once I got up on them stages I would tear em to bits
So to be fair you weren't hearing a rapper
You were hearing the aftermath that lasted thereafter
The clash of the bastards that blasted past the path of the pastors
A slave to the masters
A Classic case of chasing attackers
Task told me write a 16
Fuck it - I'm gone
It's high time y'all know the type of struggle I'm on
A lot of it's passion - asking for the livest attraction
Money talks - I speak it fluent, but it's got a thick accent
taming em up questioning why ain't it enough
So I copped Rosetta Stone to learn the language of love
Sipping elixir of the gods - I've come to rebel
So, if that cups half empty - I'm drunker than hell
Throwing up upon the beat - turntable get the spins
Stumble onto this rap shit - hungover again
I really- really eat sleep breathe this rap shit
what don't you cats get?
My tracks are a weapon steppin' back for a second..
Track Name: Landon Wordswell ft Mostafa (Prod. Shag) - Always
Always"

Mostafa intro:
1,2
what up Wordswell?
It's that time

Mostafa:
Yo Yo
I'm starring at the canvas with a chance to get it off the chest & breathe a little
Listen, Let me speak - after that you're free to feed the issues
I know I'm always gone; sometimes I need to miss you
& it hurts, but I left my heart so keep it with you
See, I've been out here trying to build it up for us
Sometimes it seems no matter what I do it's not enough
Been trying to keep it moving but the road is always rough
when I'm miles away from everyone I love
& Sometimes I wonder what it's all for
Always on tour
No matter what I catch it seems I always want more
& honestly my accomplishments don't counteract the feeling that I'm falling quick
So it's home again where the only one's that ever seem to notice when I fall apart
are those that help me grow within
& sometimes I stare into my son's eyes
& see that he believes in me so I'm never done trying

Hook:
I dont know what to do sometimes
I dont know what to do sometimes
I dont know what to do sometimes
Sometimes is temporary, but always is forever
cmon
I dont know what to do sometimes
I dont know what to do sometimes
I dont know what to do sometimes
Sometimes is temporary, but always is forever
lets go

Landon:
Sometimes I can't get out of the bed
Sometimes I hate everything I've become
can't get out of my head
Every word every judgement's like a shot to the chest
Sometimes I can't reply to the stress
So for months I turn off my phone
To Hop off of the grid
Sometimes fall short for my kid
And that hurts, But he always seems to know that I'm there
When I come home he starts smiling so i know I'm prepared
(I know) It upsets you when I make that face
But sometimes when I'm mad - I wanna stay that way
Sometimes you gotta bite the bullet
Get a taste of defeat
Success is a well balanced meal - the pain makes it complete
Sometimes I want to stop trying,
But here go the rules
never that - because I'm a hero to you
Son listen,
Look always for the better
sometimes are temporary, but always is forever

Hook:
I dont know what to do sometimes
I dont know what to do sometimes
I dont know what to do sometimes
Sometimes is temporary, but always is forever
cmon
I dont know what to do sometimes
I dont know what to do sometimes
I dont know what to do sometimes
Sometimes is temporary, but always is forever
lets go
Track Name: Landon Wordswell (Prod. Shag) - She Doesn't Know
"She doesn't know"

It's a perpetual motion
perpetual motion
perpetual motion
perpetual

Hook:
She doesn't know what to do with herself
Her family's worried - Thinks she don't even care
She's living a rough life
Where she'll end up in a few years - who knows where?

Verse 1:
This kind of thing happens
more than you know about
She had a boyfriend at home
He was a motormouth
All his promises empty
Gently anonymous
Simply Lengthy & ominous
Predominant since he's wimpy
To counteract
He found a stack
Of purple - blew a ounce of that
Taught him how to be a man
She learned from being around her dad
Daddy's girl - he was the pimp slash hustler
That wrecked her boyfriend's family - pops was a customer
His dad wasn't home much - a loner known on the corners
That would sniff, puff, smoke everything up tho
When life gets cut throat it's harder to trust folks
Riding on the bus broke going for the gusto
Chipped paint, leaky ceiling - why this happen to us for?
From Main Street to wall street it look like a dust bowl
Getting harder to uphold this part of the hustle
Blamed everything on himself - She would just adlib
She said, "don't worry - you could do what her dad did"
& even though he didn't agree
There's not a lot of room to speak when they were living this bleak
cmon

Hook:
She doesn't know what to do with herself
Her family's worried - Thinks she don't even care
She's living a rough life
Where she'll end up in a few years - who knows where?

Verse 2:
This kind of thing happens
more than you know about
Now she had a husband at home
He was a motormouth
All his promises empty
Gently anonymous
Simply Lengthy & ominous
Predominant since he's wimpy
To counteract
He found a stack
Of purple - blew a pound of that
He had a couple money machines
He liked the sound of that
They got pregnant with a daughter so he vowed to stop
Money was the love of his life, but now it's not
When He was hungry for it - he put his wife to work
I mean her daddy did it - this was just life to her
But He would never ever kept his word enough
Getting over on bosses that had a thirst for blood
these ain't dime bags - these were real killers now
With gorillas that'll go bananas if the skrilla's foul
She didn't know though - she was just on the block
It wasn't fair at all but his lying was on the watch
He was making them money & they ain't wanna stop
In this business dog - you ain't get warned a lot
They stuffed a bullet in her head - called it a warning shot

See,
This kind of thing happens more than you know about
Their daughter's boyfriend - he was a motormouth
Track Name: Landon Wordswell ft Shea (Prod by goldenbeets) - Dream On
Dream on ft Shea

Intro: Shea & Landon
Ladadada
Do it!
Dadadada
Do it!
Dadada
Dadada
Dadadada
Do it!
Ladadadada
Do it!
Do it!

Verse 1
She told me nevermind
So I neverminded her back
I put in work - at least time and a half//
She said she heard a lot of people say they thought I could rap
That's about when she grabbed my phone & then she jotted her math//
& I Was trying to take her to the beach off the Oregon coast
Then she showed me talk is cheap - yet unaffordable
I was never so infatuated before
I had to take it pass the pace we played it of course
So I took her down to Zach's shack
Right off of Hawthorne
Til this day I'm still trying to figure why my heart's torn
I was Just a clever vessel to bless you and resurrect you
You had a man and all but..
He should never left you//

Hook: (Shea)
Maybe
Baby
We just may be
Further apart than it may seem
Closing the distance in our dreams
(So close we were closer than most)
& So we dream on
Dream Dream dream dream
(So close we were closer than most)
So we dream on
Dream dream dream dream
Ladadada

Bridge 1: (Landon) repeat 2x
Counting sheep just to make it complete
I'm counting sheep just to make it complete
Cuz You're amazing to me
1, 2 and I won't make it to three
1, 2 and I won't make it to three
But I'm done making believe

Verse 2:

We Texted all day & kicked it after work
I read between the lines & every chapter's worse//
Something went wrong, but it didn't have to hurt
Cuz laughter works miracles
Abracadabra - burst//
Into the scene with an open heart
But no surgery
Though we fought it at first cuz we
Only thought of adversity//
And now I'm Trying to figure out how my heart broke
Kicking it at bars and kissing behind a costco//
But you Said distance was nothing but hell
Then you thanked me for teaching you how to stand up for yourself//
We went to war with them words
It Made me open up
Now I was on the frontline
I had a soldiers touch//
My whole soul was crushed
& I was finna crash
On my last lap but see - good guys finish last//
I was touring & you ain't wanna hold me back
But I would have held you down
I wish I would have told you that//
Track Name: Landon Wordswell (Prod. Shag) - Be Still
"Be Still"

I mean it's real shit
Something you can build with
Try to keep your mind strong
Hands off the kill switch
They told me you was done living
Shit made my eyes swell
I know since my son's living
we've had a dry spell
It's crazy cuz you're gone - moving on the abyss
& every time I think about you I dont wanna do shit
I just sit up on my couch - getting high alone
Then I pick my son up & I show him all your songs
I hug him & let him know his uncle was the shit
That's how you raise a man that's born within the jungle and the pits
I gotta say - that's a damn fine job that your mom did
& if she needs a little closure I hope she finds it
You always told me I was would be the best that ever did it
& After I laughed you would say that you weren't kidding
So Ima work hard as I can so you aren't proven wrong
Can still feel your spirit when our unfinished songs
cmon

Hook:
This ain't no goodbye
It's only bye for now
Don't move - be still be still be still be still
(I'll still be loving you)
Be still be still be still

Yo
real shit
Something we can build with
Always kept our skin tough
So that we can't feel this
What up? I know We haven't talked in a while
I've been busy doing shows - as I walk through the crowd
They can see every single thing you taught to your child
You say you happy, but I know just how you talk when you smile
I know it's because of me
I was broke for the longest time
& You just wanna see me doing good
I'm on it, Mom
Life itself as I know it now is getting scary
Because all my friends are dying off or getting married
Depending on which way that they went
It's a lifestyle - depending on what's paying they rent
They say what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger
This burden put upon us'll pawn us - no cutting corners
We had our ups and downs & then we'd miss each other
No matter what I did or said - you were still my mother
Track Name: Landon Wordswell (Prod. Shag) - I Love You (Song For Nina)
"I Love You (Song For Nina)"

Mama sent me the text & I read it surprised
I just wanted to be there to look her dead in her eyes/
She was losing her mothre - I was losing my granny
The distance I put between us - had me losing my family/
But you were just what I needed
I beat it
still felt defeated
Got treated I can't believe it, repeat it, heed it or piece it together/
It hurts to know that I could see you whenever
Yet I didn't make a difference
Man, I need to get better/
My ex said don't let the music take control of you
(Then what happened?) Missed ya call because I had a show to do/
I'm young enough to rock shows & soak in the light
.. But old enough to know this ain't right/
Family is everything from the kids to the wedding ring
Can't imagine a better thing that was given of mine/
If I took what's allotted
promised them to provide it
So If I got it you got it & all's forgiven in time/
If I didn't notice then - just know I notice now
Hold the frown
cope with emotions close to your shoulders down
The artist in me
Keeps my heart on my sleeve
So I'm pulling out the iron just to harden the crease
And I was mad as hell as I soak & dissolve
Can't help but apologize for that hole on your wall
I could make excuses all day & say it wasn't fair
But I know you know it hurts to know I wasn't there
Track Name: Landon Wordswell (Prod. EYEMC) - Lost Myself
Lost Myself Lyrics:

Lost myself

Verse 1:
Uh
And it happens like that
Live this rap life grab mics
Sacrifice stacks
gotta add spice - a seasoned veteran
A specimen that's never been a letterman - Ive let em in the fast life
Never fails - Quick to tell you the real
Played the cards I was dealt - about to tell you the deal
.. Im just a king in a stack - don't let that trouble fold ya
Never met a queen - just a couple jokers
Found my ace in a pot - about to bubble over
Double Dojah tokin' every potent potion Rollin' clovers
amnesty's divine find a family of mine
Former murderers and felons sellin' fantasies and rhymes
Looking at my life like damn I need a dime
But I want more than pocket change to handle me this time
Lost myself with some henny in my stomach
Fell in love & found my identity in a woman

Hook:
Trying to find mine
Trying to find mine
Trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
Find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
Find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
Find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine

Verse 2:
Uh
And it happens like that
Live the rap life grab mics
Sacrifice stacks, right?
Yea
Guzzle booze when I can't write
Damn fights tearing me apart every damn night
Text from the ex - telling me to swing by
Being pot & have another fling but I think not
Lost myself in this liquor and weed
The grip of defeat depletes peace
I'm pissed that I'm free
Sometimes I like a damn ball and chain
Water under the bridge & it dissolves the same
Went to war with our words and it's all in vain
I'm trying to help you heal - but the scares remain
I know I did that - I know I said shit
I know you packed your bags just to take them head trips
Lost myself - sippin henny for the heartbreak
Got depressed & found my identity in these hard days

Hook:
Trying to find mine
Trying to find mine
Trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
Find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
Find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
Find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine

Verse 3:
Uh
And it happens like that
Live the rap life grab mics
Sacrifice stacks, right?
Yea
Well my family hurtin'
Plus Landon's just another one of Anthony's burdens
stand with me
Thru insanity and vanity
If you say that you're a fan of me
I'm giving you a chance to see
The raw and the real
Not the flawless appeal
Sometimes I'm thoughtless and my heart gets the chills
Flawed individual
Lost and I'm miserable
The cost put a frost on my heart with residual
Side effects the product of a dollar with nada left
I gotta prep
papa gotta work & provide the rest
Stuck inside a lab or a cab or a vehicle
Ain't seen my son in a month but I need him though
Lost myself- sippin henny for the memories
My biggest fear is finding him not remembering me

Hook:
Trying to find mine
Trying to find mine
Trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
Find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
Find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
Find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine
I'm trying to find mine

[Outro hook]
Track Name: Landon Wordswell ft Christopher Burns (Prod. goldenbeets) - Growth
Verse 1:
I tell these rappers
I'm probably more lyrical than I'm vicious
& tell my folks I'm probably more spiritual than religious//
It's real - & I haven't been to church in a while
because I was hurt as a child
& that inserted the doubt//
As a kid battle rappin' til my lungs straight plummet
I told em Id connect with hot lines like 1-800//
You see - I kept it real as I can
Stand with gorillas and fans
Fam's in the villa - ima build us a camp
But My brother's dead - like damn he gone
But he was sly enough - to keep the family stoned//
Kept that pain in my heart as I harbored it
From the start it was marvelous
But these losses are hard to miss//
Heartless often I fought for this
Walk the talk on the cross for this
Started off I was fatherless
Lost in thoughts of a narcissist //
I'm just trying to grow
But it's kinda slow
Put it all on the table like
Dominos//
Mama knows Im a rhymer
But time to time I'm just trying show
Common folks that I'm common, folks
Read the signs when I find the notes//
I just spoke it in chronicles
Chronological order
I promised I would comply
But this time I shot for the border//
Getting outta the country - only cuz I could rap
There's homies I tried to back - but the homies could not adapt//
Local rappers hate me - don't think I'm trying to son y'all
I'm just trying to stack this money for my son, dog//
& if you mad - I'm nice enough to speak & laugh
But if you talking too reckless - I'll probably beat ya ass//
keep it positive, so homies'll try me
Until they understand there ain't a bitch bone in my body//
I used to slap em in the mouth if they ever tried to take mine
& Put em on Pet control - picking up they canines//
But I'm trying to be a different man for my son
if I get arrested again then the damage is done//

Christopher & Landon Hook: repeat 2x
I want to
Grow
Grow
Grow
Grow
Grow
Im Screaming mama we made it
Never Sleep until it's time for cremation

Verse:
Im just not who I used to be
My friends ain't even used to me
But none of this is new to me
I'm really just not into it
They asking what I'm finna fix
They barking up the wrong tree
I'm breaking off these stems and sticks
I move missions - I don't care who's listening
Ima stay feeding these bums - like a soup kitchen
Got these crews dissin
I diss right back
Eat em in my sleep - midnight snack//
Put ya style up on a pole & have you stripped like that
& if you playin' hardball then Ima get spiked bats
It's the real baby
I'm just telling you how I feel lately
I do a lot for these rappers but yet they still hate me
& I ain't trying to take control
I just lead the route
call it lawn care - I weed em out
I see every single snake in the grass
They play dirty but I learned it all from taking a bath

Christopher & Landon Hook: repeat 4x
I want to
Grow
Grow
Grow
Grow
Grow
Im Screaming mama we made it
Never Sleep until it's time for cremation
Track Name: Landon Wordswell (Prod. Shag) - Growing Pains
"Growing Pains"

Light the marijuana
Yup - he's a goner
Seeking decent karma
This Cold heart is getting warmer//
They used to hate it, homie
But now they help us
Probably because I finally lived & learned to grow the hell up//
I'm a fella with perpellers hella overdeveloped
So don't tell me skies the limit when I see em fly within it//
You can't be your own God - well, unless you 5 percent it
Then it's Telling me what sin is - I'm a cynic til I'm finished//
Spend the spinach when it's ripe as hell
See, I write for living so now my life's for sell//
Yo My life's fast
Because I never really think before I write raps
Then I get home & got hell to pay - poppin' price tags//
My demons on the register - satin's up for management
& everyone I've double crossed on faces of the manikins//
Baby moms seeming like she probably want a man again
I keep her in my thoughts,
In my prayers, but it's damaging//
My emotions died & I buried my feelings
So my main problem now is I'm not very forgiving
Plus anger was the only thing that guided my pride
What I could decide wasn't obvious with options applied//
I tried to derive the questions that resided inside
Like why I only seemed to call to GOD when I cry//
My ex said to quit my job and spit a song
So Then I hopped on tour, but I did her wrong//
I never wanted her to raise our kid alone
& Another man Raising my son Cuz we can't get along//
That shit would hurt more than you think
So I tell myself I should have thought - more than I drink//
I brought them whores to the brink
I'm being real as I can
No disrespect To all my feminine fans//
Stay out shallow waters
There's talent in that ocean
Swimming in women only keeps you
Drowning in emotion
Add the bells and whistles
Drop the shells and pistols
Man, it's time to come home
Can't you tell they miss you?//
I'm looking at you like "why would you not"?
Especially when we didn't know our biological pops//
I'd do anything to come home
Crawl walk or run home
If I did a little sentence - I'd never let it run on//
With enough grammar to
Save face for the cameras
Stamina's got me lapping the pack and passing parameters//
My whole modus operandi is to
Father mines
Tried to rhyme not for dollar signs but for bottom lines//
26 years - still don't know who I am
But the older that I get I'm sticking closing to fam//
Getting closer to fans stitching these quotes with hands
Like I'm supposed to
But hold up hold us, the culture, the clan
To a standard & oath
Where demands and commandments go hand to hand & elope
While taking chances with hope
My little man getting old
So now my plan can unfold
I never tamper with those
This Just a sample of growth
Kamari